Inevitable pain that can touch your soul

I cried so hard that even my soul can feel the pain. You feel so weak, vulnerable, and helpless. You are shouting so loud that you know that Allah is listening to your pain. BUT WHY IT'S NOT GONE YET?

Someone told me if you want the pain to be gone you need to let yourself dive into the pain and slowly you come out of it. But my life is a living hell loop. I let myself in but it is working in a continuous loop. The more I go inside more I am losing myself. 

When I was young I was told that Allah never gives you pain more than your capacity. When will you realize that your capacity is full? When you start getting ideas to end your life? Is that the point when you feel you can't take it anymore?

Life is becoming miserable. I feel it every day every time every second of my life.

I NEED HELP!!