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Fight it or compromise it

 No I don't idealize my parents!! No one can imagine this growing up seeing your parents and you get traumatized for the rest of your life that I don't want to be like any of them. I did my best to make myself a strong woman and my family did their best to make me compromise in my life but why? I am not responsible for what have been taken away from me. My brother did the first mistake then my father made me lost it now they want me to wait till my 40s so that someone can come and validate my whole existence and then reject for one thing that wasn't in my control ever. I bear the pain for like 13 years which obviously no one knows the whole process of me getting out of it. If they were much concerned then the second surgery shouldn't get late it would be their priority and unfortunately i wasn't lucky enough to get the whole attention even after accident.
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Inevitable pain that can touch your soul

I cried so hard that even my soul can feel the pain. You feel so weak, vulnerable, and helpless. You are shouting so loud that you know that Allah is listening to your pain. BUT WHY IT'S NOT GONE YET? Someone told me if you want the pain to be gone you need to let yourself dive into the pain and slowly you come out of it. But my life is a living hell loop. I let myself in but it is working in a continuous loop. The more I go inside more I am losing myself.  When I was young I was told that Allah never gives you pain more than your capacity. When will you realize that your capacity is full? When you start getting ideas to end your life? Is that the point when you feel you can't take it anymore? Life is becoming miserable. I feel it every day every time every second of my life. I NEED HELP!!
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